I think She gets it.
Posted June 10th 2012 at 06:46 PM by George^^
This is basically about my friend… And I think she's finally in some shape or form, understanding me. Understanding my position in gender and sex and how I am George and that I am male, and that I might not be the most manly male ever, that I still am male.
Like with the "Why George?" Blog thing, she's gotten that I have a name and that name is not my female name and was even interested in it and about finding another could be name, through I think I'll stick with George, because it has a big meaning for me and makes me feel closer to my grandpa without having the same name as my brother and our younger cousin (who are both named after my grandpa.)
For a while I was feeling really down, horrible even. Thinking that no one I knew understood me and that to the people who do know about me that I will always be "a girl" to them, because that's how I felt like my friend saw me, as a "girl", and not as me. But now I'm beginning to think that they do see me as me and not the false image of a "female" that I represent to the rest of the world. Which makes me happy, not because I really need the opinion of people to feel that I am "alright" but because I needed it to feel like there are people who respect me as myself. If I had not found any of that in her, I doubt I would feel as happy as I do right now.
But I still think that I should ask her about it, and try to work through it so that there are no "I don't get this"'s and that I know that she understands instead of just going along with it.
Like with the "Why George?" Blog thing, she's gotten that I have a name and that name is not my female name and was even interested in it and about finding another could be name, through I think I'll stick with George, because it has a big meaning for me and makes me feel closer to my grandpa without having the same name as my brother and our younger cousin (who are both named after my grandpa.)
For a while I was feeling really down, horrible even. Thinking that no one I knew understood me and that to the people who do know about me that I will always be "a girl" to them, because that's how I felt like my friend saw me, as a "girl", and not as me. But now I'm beginning to think that they do see me as me and not the false image of a "female" that I represent to the rest of the world. Which makes me happy, not because I really need the opinion of people to feel that I am "alright" but because I needed it to feel like there are people who respect me as myself. If I had not found any of that in her, I doubt I would feel as happy as I do right now.
But I still think that I should ask her about it, and try to work through it so that there are no "I don't get this"'s and that I know that she understands instead of just going along with it.
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